Life Is Not Purgatory
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Amethyst Conundrum
... and lighter fare.
I like people. I like a lot of people. I am attracted to several people - but I generally (as a rule) crash and burn in most of these situations. I've always been a little 'shy' when it comes to taking the first tentative steps in a relationship - I'm generally too afraid to hurt others, hurt the friendship, or hurt myself that I simply let the status quo reign.
My recent attempts to break myself of this have not gone well - one resulted in the whole 'other man' debacle and the other has me as the second fiddle (not that I really mind - I'm pretty much used to failure) to someone who is a little more 'shiny' than me. Now, I'm not bitter but I am discouraged. I would really like 2005 to end on a good note - otherwise it's probably one of the worst years I've ever had (although nowhere near washing out of university).
PS - I don't get the meaning of the Amethyst. I was given a stone tonight and told to research it and it would bring me some clarity... but the descriptions have done little more than confuse me.
... and lighter fare.
I like people. I like a lot of people. I am attracted to several people - but I generally (as a rule) crash and burn in most of these situations. I've always been a little 'shy' when it comes to taking the first tentative steps in a relationship - I'm generally too afraid to hurt others, hurt the friendship, or hurt myself that I simply let the status quo reign.
My recent attempts to break myself of this have not gone well - one resulted in the whole 'other man' debacle and the other has me as the second fiddle (not that I really mind - I'm pretty much used to failure) to someone who is a little more 'shiny' than me. Now, I'm not bitter but I am discouraged. I would really like 2005 to end on a good note - otherwise it's probably one of the worst years I've ever had (although nowhere near washing out of university).
PS - I don't get the meaning of the Amethyst. I was given a stone tonight and told to research it and it would bring me some clarity... but the descriptions have done little more than confuse me.
