Life Is Not Purgatory

Wednesday, April 30, 2003

Caribbean Blue - Enya
Eurus
Afer Ventus

So the world goes round and round
with all you ever knew
They say the sky high above
Is Caribbean blue ...

If every man says all he can,
If every man is true,
Do I believe the sky above
Is Caribbean blue ...

... Boreas ...
... Zephryus ...

If all you told was turned to gold,
If all you dreamed were new,
Imagine sky high above
In Caribbean blue ...

... Eurus...
Afer Ventus ...
... Boreas
Zephryus ...
... Africus ...
:: posted by Lazarus, 11:33 PM | link |
Council Wars: Episode II - Clone of the Personal Attacks
I get to officiate the next LRPS Council Meeting. It will be filled with individuals trying to make a statement about fairness in gaming, attempting to stamp out cheating, and a plethora of personality conflicts all in the hopes of following through with the Society Objective of improving the reputation of live roleplaying, promoting the enjoyment of all such participants, and keeping the games as open and intimidating as possible.Yay! - I am so pleased!

Someone (who reads this blog) says that I am intimidating to others, that I am an old-LRPS'er. I remember, not-so-long ago when I was the newbie and Nightshade was my shepherd amongst the gaming community. Have the tables turned so much that I am just as intimidating to the newbies as the 'old-guard' were when I first joined? Am I letting history repeat itself? I don't know... part of me is wondering if we have made any progress at all in the Society... and if our contributions have amounted to a hill of beans.

Regardless, tomorrow will be interesting - I hope I am not arrested for assault or murder tomorrow... I'd hate to be escorted out of my workplace in handcuffs (unless I was attached to someone really hot.)
:: posted by Lazarus, 11:07 PM | link |
Victoria's Secret
So it's three weeks until the Victoria Day long-weekend. It looked for awhile there that I wasn't going to be able to attend MayQuest and referee for Keltie. Having to bail from a quest is generally not good, especially as a referee. Oh Well. Barring an epic-change at work, I will be able to attend. I have to do some contortions with the schedule to make it work, but it does appear that I will not be Manager-On-Duty for the entire weekend. Yay!

On another work-related note: I had my job threatened 21 times by one individual today. It really was quite interesting. I am thinking about downloading the digital video footage of the entire incident and putting it as a link on the site... hmmm.... probably not... but it REALLY would be funny - I could even put on a play by play as subtitles on the footage... - probably a bad idea. It really amuses me when people bluster about the equivalent of knowing "God". I mean, get real, you can't know the owner of Holiday Inn, it is a publicly traded Company - you idiot. Anyways he threatened my job, threatened my person, OH! and then, and then! he started taking potshots at my physique!!! I almost quipped back with a few choice word about his, but I didn't - man that was tough - and eventually the loser left and I called off the cops who were apparently only 5 minutes away. SIGH

I love throwing people out... especially I like it when my regulars are witnesses to how much of a colossal *^@!% the guy was and then start laughing at him after he leaves. I called my boss, he laughed and told me to give the guy his business card so that he can tear him a new one. I look forward to being in his office while this happens. :) Anyways... gotta run.
:: posted by Lazarus, 10:49 PM | link |

Monday, April 28, 2003

Lean On Me - Bill Withers
Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me…
:: posted by Lazarus, 9:31 PM | link |

Sunday, April 27, 2003

Fade To Black And Blue
I thought Anna was going to kill me. I said I was going to be at her game aad I was... late... really, really late - but I was there!

As it turns out I am going to have to do some fancy footwork in May. I am scheduled to be MOD (Manager-On-Duty) on that weekend which wouldn't be so bad, except for one minor problem, I committed to Keltie that I would referee for her durin MayQuest! If I back out now she'll beat me black and blue (or just kill me). Perhaps I should make out my will, eh?

Anyways work is hectic, I have to go. Ciao!
:: posted by Lazarus, 11:50 AM | link |

Saturday, April 26, 2003

A New Template
So I finally got around to updating to blog, and changing the template, and making comments work, etc. So I decided that I will continue to post lyrics in my blog. However, although I find the songs to make sense to me as to why I posted them, I will endeavor to enure that I at least point people in the right direction.

Work is going well, except for the problem of that we are doing the sales and marketing efforts that should have been done 6 months ago, and as a result our property is very slow. But with some of the changes that are being made I am cautiously optimistic. I forgot how much I enjoyed working for my GM. I know that he trusts my judgement, and that makes working with him easier than would otherwise be anticipated.

Purgatory was last night, and by most accounts it went well. I am going to Anna's game tonight to observe and possibly do some last minute acting, if needed.

Otherwise it appears to be the status quo. Several of my friends are trying their hands at new relationships - I wish them the best.
:: posted by Lazarus, 6:14 PM | link |
Stupid Comments
So I have been fighting with my template code for about ten days trying to get my comments to work on a new template (and upload the proper files to the sever), but it the comments are still not working. ARGH!!!
:: posted by Lazarus, 5:06 PM | link |

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

Hrmmm
I need to redesign my site.
:: posted by Lazarus, 3:47 PM | link |

Thursday, April 10, 2003

Sound Familiar?
"Naturally, the common people don't want war, but after all, it is the leaders of a country who determine the policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag people along whether it is a democracy, or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. This is easy. All you have to do is to tell them that they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in every country."
- Hermann Goering, Reich-Marshall (at the Nuremburg War Crimes Tribunal)
:: posted by Lazarus, 3:33 AM | link |

Tuesday, April 08, 2003

Lyrics
Some people don't like the fact that I put song lyrics in my blog. So I am going to call it to a vote. I expect EVERYONE who has an opinion to let it be known - you can even put anonymous down (and no Arthur you can't vote more than once - even anonymously.)

I Hope You Dance - Lee Ann Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
:: posted by Lazarus, 7:06 PM | link |

Sunday, April 06, 2003

Turn Off The Light - Nelly Furtado
It's getting so lonely inside this bed
Don't know if I should lick my wounds or say woe is me instead
And there's an aching inside my head
It's telling me I'm better off alone
But after midnight morning will come
And the day will see if you will get some

They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till' you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems

I looked above the other day
Cuz I think I'm good and ready for a change
I live my life by the moon
If it's high play it low, if it's harvest go slow and if it's full, then go
But after midnight morning will come
And the day will see if you're gonna get some

They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till' you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems

I'm searching for things that I just cannot see
Why don't you don't you don't you come and be with me
I pretend to be cool with me, want to believe
That I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve
I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life
Where is the love that I'm looking to find
It's all in me, can't you see, I can see, why can't you see it's all in me

They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till' you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems

Where is your logic
Who do you need
Where can you turn in your delicate time of need
Follow me down, follow me down down down,
I do not need I do not need nobody
Where is your logic
Who do you need
Where can you turn in your delicate time of need
Follow me down, follow me down down down,
:: posted by Lazarus, 1:21 PM | link |
The Fallen
Micha - Fallen Angel, and the embodiment of Envy.

That is what I did last night after work. I worked with a friend of mine on the background for her character over dinner at BP’s. It is actually a really cool background, too bad I won’t be able to see her all ‘Goth-ed’ up for the games. I enjoyed assisting in writing the background but The Angels-genre isn’t really my thing. But if she tries it out a few games and gives it her endorsement, perhaps I will try my hand at it.
:: posted by Lazarus, 10:28 AM | link |
Dust In The Wind - Kansas
I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind.
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind

[Now] Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, and all your money won't another minute buy.

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind, everything is dust in the wind.
:: posted by Lazarus, 10:15 AM | link |

Friday, April 04, 2003

Sold Out
$35.00 for Avril Lavigne tickets, unfortunately it's sold out at Skyreach Center. I think I am going to call TicketMaster and find out if more are going to be released closer to the concert date... anyone wanna come with me if I find some?
:: posted by Lazarus, 6:10 PM | link |
Flirting
Why is it that I can flirt with and serenade my friends but I get a severe case of lockjaw the moment I attempt to turn my talents(?) toward someone I am interested in? Sigh. Star suggested I keep practicing on her… however, I have no problem doing so with my friends, it’s just when I want to be more than friends it comes and bites me in the ass.

Star - get over here, I think I need some validation. :)
:: posted by Lazarus, 6:08 PM | link |
I'm With You - Avril Lavigne
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
Searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everythigns a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
:: posted by Lazarus, 1:26 PM | link |

Thursday, April 03, 2003

Sleepless In Seattle
I am on a Horizon Air jet returning home from Seattle after a very active and successful business trip. I am glad to be returning for a multitude of reasons. First off, I didn’t sleep very well… not that our accommodations were sub-standard or anything, in fact the staff, service and hospitality of the Holiday Inn Seattle Centre was excellent. But somehow I just couldn’t sleep in my normal amount of comfort. Perhaps it was the King-sized bed (as opposed to my normal Twin, or the latent humidity ever present in the air, or the fact that I have so many things on my mind that sleep seems to be taking a backseat.

What did we do in Seattle, after each training session? Well… uhm… let me say that in the past four nights I have consumed more alcohol that I did in the previous 6 months (and Christmas, New Years and a couple of ‘dates’ occurred in that time). I have discovered that asking for a Rye and Coke in the US is asking for Bourbon and Soda. I have also discovered that I do not like the taste of bourbon. We left early on Wednesday (we were done before anyone else in the course) and took a walk along the waterfront. Seattle is a very interesting city: exceptionally clean… even in the more rundown areas – practically no litter at all, and any that is there is cleaned up by garbage pickers. The single most interesting sight (that I’ll publish on my blog) our visit to B-39 a Russian Foxtrot-Class Diesel-Electric Submarine that has been turned into an exhibit at Pier-48 in downtown Seattle. WOW! That was amazingly kewl!

Anyways just got into my office, ensured the boardroom was availible for the LRPS council meeting tonight, and am running home to change, unpack and catch as snooze. My inbox is freaking full so I have a TON of stuff to do. TTYL
:: posted by Lazarus, 4:21 PM | link |

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

Update Notice
I changed some links and will be doing a few posts later today (or typing them on the flight back home.)
:: posted by Lazarus, 8:53 PM | link |

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