I Really Am - A Scorched Earth Tank
Nightshade agrees - and told me update my blog and so I shall... but not now. :P

I am a Scorched Earth Tank. When I have a mission, it consumes me; I will not be satisfied until the job is done. I have a strong sense of duty, and a strong sense of direction. Changes in the tide don't phase me - I always know which way the wind blows, and I know how to compensate for it. I get on poorly with people like myself. What Video Game Character Are You?

Refelections
It has been a very tough week.

Part of me is bruised – but reveling in helping someone I care about deeply find her way out of the emotional quagmire she was in. I have known for a long time that my friend hadn’t dealt with the issues that were affecting her interpersonal relations and she was headed for a major breakdown and soon if she didn’t deal with it. Reminders of her personal demons lurked around every corner and in the lives of her friends and family all stark reminders that locking away her demons beneath a façade of composure was not helping. Tears were shed, lives were helped, and a heart was bruised.

It is a heavy cross to bear, but I would rather be her friend than nothing at all. I have known for a while that there was little hope for a relationship, but part of me was holding out beyond reason. Her question of me after thanking me for being there, “Are you okay, with just being friends?” put it all into perspective.

My own selfish, romantic interests were interfering in helping her as a friend. “Yes, of course” was my answer – and it’s true. I have moved on… I’ll seek my own fortunes in the game of love, we’ll both be players in that game soon enough… and I’ll be her friend regardless.

Your Song – Elton John
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

Oops
I said I'd post more... but I have been far too busy... sorry.

A New Era
Sorry I haven't posted for so long. I am sitting here at my new job trying to get Windows XP to acknowldge that my printer, HP PhotoSmart P1000, actually exists. So far no luck. I am going to try one more thing and if that doesn't work I am going to throw the printer off an 8th floor balcony. Yay!

I'll post more tommorow, I have a few good stories to tell. TTYL.

Complicated - Avril Lavigne
Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake this
no no no

New Beginnings
I tendered my resignation effective March 14, 2003. I am moving to another hotel, under my former General Manager. It is a similar position, Front Office Manager, but with less corporate interference. Here is hoping it works out.