Life Is Not Purgatory
Friday, June 13, 2003
New Career Path?
A beautiful piece of jailbait told me to update my blog more often! Apparently there are a lot more people than I thought of reading the drivel contained herein than I know about. Regardless, one does not maintain a weblog with any expectation of privacy… so I’m not surprised or any more self-conscious than I would be in personal conversation.
Recently I have been taking note of the number of people I consider to be friends, and actually it’s not that small a number, as more people move from ‘friendly acquaintance’ to ‘friend’ category. Now, friends are important to me… and always have been. I have a strong sense of personal loyalty to my friends and have a similar expectation from others that I would have as my friends.
I have also taken note that any individual that I have recently expressed or had any kind of romantic interest in, has generally been firmly entrenched as a friend. Now, I’m not aggravated, but it would appear that I need to adjust my paradigm to accept my new motto: “Friend to many, and lover to none.”… at least in my current circle of friends.
So… this brings me to the realization that if I cannot date within the role-playing community, or anything that even remotely touches upon that hobby (the waitress and I are good friends now, and nothing more), then I have to develop another circle of friends, or resort… to personal ads and internet dating services?
Sigh… Now, I have a fairly healthy self-esteem, but the most glaring weakness in that item of personal armour is: relationships. I have had absolutely no luck, and I am not certain that I have the emotional capital to invest in such an endeavour without becoming jaded, morose and melancholy… let alone if I even have the time to go out and meet new people via a dating service.
Hmm… maybe I should just become a priest. I have the counselling skills, dedication, tenacity, fiery charisma (at times), celibacy… just have to work on the whole ‘faith’ part.
Mood: Contemplative
Music: 38 Years Old - The Tragically Hip
A beautiful piece of jailbait told me to update my blog more often! Apparently there are a lot more people than I thought of reading the drivel contained herein than I know about. Regardless, one does not maintain a weblog with any expectation of privacy… so I’m not surprised or any more self-conscious than I would be in personal conversation.
Recently I have been taking note of the number of people I consider to be friends, and actually it’s not that small a number, as more people move from ‘friendly acquaintance’ to ‘friend’ category. Now, friends are important to me… and always have been. I have a strong sense of personal loyalty to my friends and have a similar expectation from others that I would have as my friends.
I have also taken note that any individual that I have recently expressed or had any kind of romantic interest in, has generally been firmly entrenched as a friend. Now, I’m not aggravated, but it would appear that I need to adjust my paradigm to accept my new motto: “Friend to many, and lover to none.”… at least in my current circle of friends.
So… this brings me to the realization that if I cannot date within the role-playing community, or anything that even remotely touches upon that hobby (the waitress and I are good friends now, and nothing more), then I have to develop another circle of friends, or resort… to personal ads and internet dating services?
Sigh… Now, I have a fairly healthy self-esteem, but the most glaring weakness in that item of personal armour is: relationships. I have had absolutely no luck, and I am not certain that I have the emotional capital to invest in such an endeavour without becoming jaded, morose and melancholy… let alone if I even have the time to go out and meet new people via a dating service.
Hmm… maybe I should just become a priest. I have the counselling skills, dedication, tenacity, fiery charisma (at times), celibacy… just have to work on the whole ‘faith’ part.
Mood: Contemplative
Music: 38 Years Old - The Tragically Hip
